Did you miss me? I missed you! I know, I know…it has been well over a month since my last post. This has been a most fruitful month, if I do say so myself.
I had pretty much gotten to the end of myself in this past year. I have been settled into a fantastic career. Far beyond a paycheck, it has been the most rewarding year of my employment since I stopped being a home-maker in 2006. I am fraught with purpose and destiny. I am in love with all of my co-workers and all of the volunteers/interns that I have encountered at PASS network for life.
I have you all to thank for a most productive blog life. I have seen so much love and support…it is almost too much to fathom. There are lots of things in the works as a result of the conversations we have been having from a Kaleidoscope perspective. I can’t wait to share with you about what is coming next. But that may have to wait just another month or so.
A lot of things have happened as a result of my near-death experience in July. For one, I have a greater gratitude for life. I recognize that time is short and I need to live a life of joy AND happiness; not just to fulfill my purpose, but to surround myself with those who mean me the MOST good, not just those who don’t want to hurt me. Because of that, I have divorced the love of my youth, only to have the love of my life find me, pursue me and hold me close. I am a phenomenally blessed human being. Things move pretty quickly when you get out of your own way (I’m just saying).
All of this brought me to a holiday season of very mixed emotions. I had never been so happy! God is restoring the years that the locust has eaten, and He’s doing it in a QUICK WORK. I have love in my life like I have never known. When God presents us with an opportunity to love and be loved, we should grab hold with both hands and treat it like the gift that it is!
This season has been a little intimidating as well. My purpose and destiny are taking shape. I see my sons walking into their purpose and destiny as well. To God belongs all the glory! I feel that this may be the last Christmas and New Year we have lived under the same roof together. Our living situation is about to change again, and this time, it will look very different. We have emerged from what may be our last year as “all we’ve got.” We have had to depend on one another through some of the hardest times imaginable. That has forged a mighty bond between us that cannot be severed. But I raised my sons to leave me, as is only right to do, for they were never really mine to claim. I struggle with wondering if I did everything I knew how to do, to prepare them. I am trusting the God who made us all to make up the difference.
I have also never been so keenly aware of the fragility of life and that time should not be wasted. I found out about the passing of a very dear YOUNG woman…Barbara Ann Peeples has left this life and it has hurt my heart tremendously. I have had other dear friends with loved ones who let go of this life in recent weeks and I have commiserated with many whose hearts feel lonely and low during these festive seasons. I have watched people suffer around me in ways that only few of us can honestly relate. Top that off with my own personal confrontation with “Old Man Winter,” where I spun out, due to snow, on an overpass and ONLY blew out both of my front tires. Scary stuff, but I made it out, yet again, alive.
I want to take a moment to just thank God. It is difficult to understand, from the outset, what God is doing. But I love to see Him work. I am always surprised at how things work out in my favor, from such contradictory circumstances. I have seen the Lord take the foolish things of this world (like my life) and confound the wise too many times to doubt the mightiness of His hand.
And so, my dear friends, I say welcome to a new year! Welcome to the land of GREATER, where God is showing His magnificence and splendor in ALL of His people. I expect to see it God go BIG this year!