Turbulence: My Apology to God, By Shaquita Harris


Shaquita Harris is my FRIEND.  Our relationship may seem unlikely as, in all honesty; she was hired to replace me.  It was even suggested that I not befriend her by those who knew what was really going on.  But it was already too late.  I already loved her and would protect her to my last. 

And as it turns out, she has inspired me and encouraged me and loved me at least as much as I have for her.  This ferocious woman of God with common sense bathed in Holy Ghost power is devoted and honest, fun-loving and free-hearted.  She sees everyone through eyes of truth and tries with every fiber of her being to extend grace far beyond others’ ability to return it. 

Here is a word of knowledge and wisdom from my favorite little stack of dynamite.

 

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Throughout life I have experienced many ups and downs. Sometimes things would occur back to back as if the world was just out to get me. In the midst of this, I felt as if God no longer cared what happened to me. I went to church out of habit and my relationship with the Creator seemed to be dwindling. I started to feel resentment because I know that I am not perfect, but I made a decision to wake up every day with the intent of treating people the way that I want to be treated.

Prophets have spoken a word from the Lord over my life and had given me instructions that the Lord said if you do this then you will be blessed. So I started doing those things. I cut off unhealthy relationships, gave my tithes, fasted, sowed seeds of faith into the church and the man and woman of god, practiced gratefulness, helped people when they needed me and overall just made a conscious effort to become a better person.

After doing all of this it seemed as if everything that I was doing was turned against me. People started to spread rumors about me, lie on me, lie to me, people who I thought liked me as a person at the very least became spiteful and mean toward me for absolutely no reason other than they got kicks out of being mean. I had never done anything to them or said anything bad about them, but they made sure that they showed me EXACTLY how they felt about me. The sad part is that they never had a conversation with me about who I really am, what I like, my goals, or my dreams, but let them tell it they knew the type of person that I was. My house was broken into twice in less than one year, my car was stolen, I felt like friends left me hanging in my time of need, and I became angry and bitter towards God because I was doing everything in my power to be what He told me to be and do what He asked me to do and NONE of these wonderful blessings that I was supposed to see came into fruition.

My thoughts became “what am I doing this for?” Why would you tell me to do ALL of this and then leave me hanging?…I QUIT! I stopped being committed to church. Truthfully, I really didn’t feel like going to church was going to make my life any easier. I went, but I wasn’t really “feeling it”.

Fast forward…So I board a plane to take a well needed vacation: with head phones in ear, neck pillow and blanket, I nod off to go to sleep. About an hour into the flight I was awakened by the pilot announcing to everyone to fasten our seatbelts because there is turbulence ahead. I still had on my seatbelt from when I originally boarded. Slightly annoyed that I was awakened by his loud announcement over the intercom, I adjusted my pillow and went back to sleep. The plane rocked a little, and I got a little bumpy, but it didn’t shake me not one bit. Another hour passes and I’m awakened AGAIN by the pilot announcing that we are coming upon some more turbulence and he repeated his previous announcement. As I got ready to go back to sleep, the Holy Spirit said “Wait. So you trust me to keep you safe in this air through all of this turbulence, where there is NO control over anything? If something were to happen, you wouldn’t be able to do a thing about it. But you don’t trust me to handle things in your life while you are walking around on the ground?”

WOAH!!! Instantly I felt convicted and I had to apologize to my Father for the way that I had been acting. My spirit wept continuously as I asked Him to forgive me. At that moment I decided to let everyone and every situation GO!

Sometimes we just have to let God handle things. No, life isn’t fair and things happen that we don’t understand, but sometimes it isn’t meant for us to understand. We just have to have faith and believe that God knows what he is doing. When times get hard remember Galatians 6:9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

 

My God Bless and Keep you all. 

Shaquita

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1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. quita1020
    Aug 22, 2012 @ 20:40:44

    To God be the glory for the things that he has done! Thank you Janee’ for your beautiful words and for seeing my heart through my imperfections and loving me anyway.

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