I am in the most AMAZING place in my life! I am beginning again.
I wonder what Moses must have felt. Not after the 40 years on the backside of the desert, but after the waters parted…just as he was beginning the arduous, miraculous trek through the red sea. No mud between his toes; with a crystal clear aquarium on either side, and a few million of his closest friends/greatest detractors walking alongside him.
He had, only a short while ago, shut the door on the life he once had. He let go of a family that provided him prominence at a price, to embrace a family that needed him (even if they did not always necessarily want him). With that family, came a heavy duty assignment: take a discontented, disorganized group of people out of their poverty mentality and their place of oppression, into a place of opulence and abundance.
Now, both places God did amazing, supernatural miracles to show that He was for them and that they were truly His people. And both places required them to be strong in the face of their enemies. But in the place of promise, they had become so accustomed to fighting as the underdog they could not accept that the tables had turned…or how they had turned. They were no longer slaves. They were destined to be on the winning side. The balance of power shifted because one man heard, believed and acted on the Word of God.
Remember, no one had actually heard from God in a very long time. They remembered everything God said before He stopped talking, but His word had been distorted in their minds and mouths by the generations of slavery and the feelings of defeat that had come with them. When Moses came, with God’s word in his mouth, they could not handle it or even recognize it. It didn’t sound anything like what they were saying.
While Moses was truly an Israelite, he came with the credentials of royalty AND he was protected from their slavery mentality. So he was the only one who understood what God was saying and had the sense to agree with it. He also knew without that word from God, his kinsmen wouldn’t make it out of Egypt alive.
So here I am: having walked away from my immediate family and a slavery/provision at a price lifestyle. I’ve stood waist-deep in water, having just seen the red sea split in two, and am just beginning my trek on impossibly, and unbelievably dry ground.
How do I mean? I have a beyond pleasant working relationship with my former husband. He has become the father his sons have desperately needed. God has returned the sons to their father and the father to his sons. And while God did not restore our marriage, he restored our life-long FRIENDSHIP for which I would not trade the world. I am in a marvelously thriving relationship with a wonderful man that is more than making up for what I had long been sorely missing. We are all in a place where we can continue to point our children to Christ.
I am in various stages of developing THREE careers in community service that are all dove-tailing together. And I love each one of them. I feel my sense of purpose being fulfilled in ways that absolutely defy my imagination.
There’s a lot that is happening between the walking away from and the walking into. I know I have only just seen the red sea part, and I still have LOTS of walking to do…but much like Moses (and I suspect, like many others), it all began with a Word from the Lord. And, also much like Moses, I know how the story ends (especially if I don’t lose my cool at other people’s responses to what God is doing in and through me).
God really has a thing about words. Not just His words but OUR words.
There is an element of His Sovereignty that has been imparted to us with our ability to choose. It is the one component that God takes His hand completely out of. Oh, He is with us before and after our choice is made, no matter whether the choice is good or bad. But, the choice is totally on us.
This is why we must be very deliberate about our choice of words. God is very clear about the fact that our words are procreative. It is a part of who we are that is in the express image of God the Father. He says over and over in His Word that our words will either produce life or death. It is also our ability to display the actions that correspond to our words that hangs in the balance. Our actions add value to the words we speak.